music: [looming.sorrow.descent-sewerslvt] video by
kanalas on youtube, Poem by me.
This world.
I was pushed into this world against my will by a women who claims to love me.
Yet this world is cruel and violent.
How can love be real when that love brought me to this wretched earth.
Or is love a curse.
As humanity burns down it's land and pushes people in need away.
As humanity kills each other and takes what it wants.
How can I deserve love if this is the reality of my world.
Why do I fall into love over and over when the only outcome iv ever had is heart break.
Why was I born with this impossible desire to find true love.
Does love even exist.
Does this world even exist.
Or maybe love is only rewarded to the most cruel people.
All around I see people I don't know in love.
The worst humans among me have love.
Even men who have killed thousands of other men and women have a lover.
Am I too good to have a love in my life.
Or am I too evil to have a love of my own.
I ask questions i don't understand to myself because nobody else knows the answers.. but neither do I.
What inside me has this immense desire for Love..
Will it ever get hold of the beautiful things I dream for, or will it break down and lash out against me for not feeding it.
I feel the stress of 7 billion souls inside me and I don't know if I can keep them much longer.
Am I just a confused creature on a rock believing Im the only thing there is.
Or am I really just an evil god.